It is only through the effort of expressing that we clarify and make distinct who we are and who we are becoming.
- Jerry Fresia *
I find that blogging is freeing and intimidating at the same time. On the one hand I can say whatever I want. On the other hand, I can say whatever I want. For a mid-fourties girl who has spent a lifetime trying to please others, the opportunity to express myself honestly is a bit daunting.
To express my "self" I must first find out who she is.
It's hard to get used to having my own space...my own platform where I don't have to say the "right" thing. I don't have to blend or keep the peace. Still I find my self wondering what a reader might need to hear or what I could say that would make you want to return to this space of mine. Old habits are hard to break.
As I learn to write from my heart my true self timidly begins to emerge. It's touch and go. She still wants to hide behind the masks that have kept her safe and made her presentable. I have to say, though, it sure feels good when the masks come off and she feels the sun shining on her face. Maybe I should stock up on sunscreen...
* This quote is from an article entitled "Why We Paint"( http://painting.about.com/od/inspiration/a/JFresia_miracle.htm) Many of the ideas the author presents apply not just to painting, but to any creative expression. It's an encouraging read.